In the past week, I think I have tried on about a million pairs of jeans...thanks to my two best girl friends and two separate shopping trips which were both a blast!!! So, let's break down trying on jeans...
1) You see them in the store and they look sooooooooooooo cute! Surely, even though they are on that stick thin plastic model and look fabulous they should look even better on you!
2) So, you sort through all the tiny sizes and finally find your size at the very bottom, tucked beneath the tiny little jeans that go on the plastic stick thin model. No worries though because you are going to look hot!
3) You go into the dressing room with a huge smile and possibly a cute top to make an outfit!
4) So, since it is winter you pull off your heavy boots and pants and even though your thighs look like cottage cheese, you just know these cute jeans will solve all your clothing problems.
5) Finally, the moment of truth comes. You pull on the jeans. So, they are a little tight in the thighs but still you are hopeful.
6) You pull them up to your waist...What? You cannot believe it...your thighs are crammed into the fabric like a pig fighting underneath a blanket but the waist is about 2 sizes too big. Oh, and the crotch is so long that you look like you should have some extra equipment down there.
7) But you remain somewhat hopeful despite this small defeat so you trudge out the dressing room and think oh it is just the fit of this pair of jeans...
8) You pick about another 5 pairs of jeans from 5 different manufacturers and 5 different sizes convinced they will fit and make you the next super model...
9) So, now you are working up a sweat which makes pulling jeans on and off a little harder...
10) Each pair has its own fit alright...and none of them fit. So, as if the holidays aren't bad enough, you feel even worse and swear you will never eat a thing until June so you can fit into those jeans.
11) So, after you have spent 2 hours in the dressing room, you finally give up and pull on the only pair of jeans you have that fit and walk out of the dressing room, defeated but swear that you are going to exercise every minute of the day and not eat until February. You will get into those jeans.
12) This act repeats itself in about 10 stores around the mall...Finally, you give up and head home...swearing you will exercise every other day and not eat a thing until January 15.
13) You are exhausted and must have some food to make the long journey to the car so you head to the cookie stand and buy a double doozie and figure you can start not eating tomorrow.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
Fat again
So, I deleted my blog because I didn't feel I deserve to blog under Iron Tri Chick because I am fat and lazy again...
The past few months I have really been on a downward slide and depression set in. My life is a mess. I can barely get out of bed because I don't feel I have anything to look forward to. My house is a mess because I don't feel like I want to clean up. This all came to a head last night... My husband was gone, no phone calls, no real emails, the only way I find out what everyone is doing is on facebook. Everyone is out and about having fun and I was at home alone. I was so sad. Finally as I got into bed, I realized that I cannot base my happiness on other people. I have to make myself happy.
Now, I have struggled with my weight my entire life. At my highest, I was 180 pounds and 28% body fat. I am now 152 and 25% body fat. This depressed me too. I wasn't willing to make the changes to change it though. However, that changes today. I got up and went for a run. Yes, I can hear the fabric of my capris rubbing together but at least I was out there. I came home and ate a good breakfast and stopped when I was full. I undeleted this blog because I know there are others out there struggling too. So, starting today...I make me happy. I clean up and start looking for things to look forward to. I clean up my diet and feel better about me. Today is truly the first day of the rest of my life...what can I do with it? The possibilities are endless.
The past few months I have really been on a downward slide and depression set in. My life is a mess. I can barely get out of bed because I don't feel I have anything to look forward to. My house is a mess because I don't feel like I want to clean up. This all came to a head last night... My husband was gone, no phone calls, no real emails, the only way I find out what everyone is doing is on facebook. Everyone is out and about having fun and I was at home alone. I was so sad. Finally as I got into bed, I realized that I cannot base my happiness on other people. I have to make myself happy.
Now, I have struggled with my weight my entire life. At my highest, I was 180 pounds and 28% body fat. I am now 152 and 25% body fat. This depressed me too. I wasn't willing to make the changes to change it though. However, that changes today. I got up and went for a run. Yes, I can hear the fabric of my capris rubbing together but at least I was out there. I came home and ate a good breakfast and stopped when I was full. I undeleted this blog because I know there are others out there struggling too. So, starting today...I make me happy. I clean up and start looking for things to look forward to. I clean up my diet and feel better about me. Today is truly the first day of the rest of my life...what can I do with it? The possibilities are endless.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
CNC
CNC is Cycle North Carolina. It is a week long trip and about 450 miles. The route changes every year. This year we rode from Blowing Rock to Surf City.
Day 1, Saturday - Up at 3 am to drive to Surf City to catch the bus to Blowing Rock. First thing off the bus, I see my friends, Bob and Christine. They are an awesome couple who have been married over 30 years and love each other more and more each day. They ride a tandem and SMOKE up the road. We finally get going at 9 am. Luckily, I am on the bus with Bob and Christine and Stan and Elizabeth (from our club). As we are driving to Blowing Rock, it starts raining ALOT! We get to Blowing Rock at around 4 pm and it is pouring down rain. Finally off the bus, we start to put up our tents and I hear from my friend, Allison! Then I see my friend from Tennessee, Ricky! It was awesome. After a little reunion, we hop in our tents and prepare for day 1 of our ride. Did I mention it was still raining?
Day 2, Sunday-Blowing Rock to Lenoir-58 miles. After a yummy breakfast, we head out to the Blue Ridge Parkway. AWESOME. Cannot even express in words how beautiful it was. The leaves were changing and the views were absolutely incredible. Of course we had to stop and take tons of pictures. Luckily we met up with our other friend, Sandy, on the way to the viaduct! Lots of climbing but tons of descending. On the way down, I realize that we were on the road where I ran a marathon a few years ago (Ridge to Bridge...downhill for 13 miles). We are flying downhill and this lady is laying on her horn like a crazy person. Like we really have somewhere else to go so I give her a salute and continue downhill. It was so fun! At the rest stop, we all meet back up and have some yummy BBQ. We roll into town and have a fun evening at the Tennesee Ranch.
Day 3, Monday, Lenior to Statesville-60 miles-Fun day. More climbing. Fun night in Statesville listening to local musicians and yummy pasta!
Day 4, Tuesday, Statesville to Thomasville-60 miles or so-Did I mention more climbing? By this day, I am asking God if this is a test? I want to be a better climber but not in one week! We roll in and both Allison and I have massages scheduled. Allison naps in the grass as we are just pooped. Ricky (Tennessee Ranch Master) tells us that Bobby Labonte (NASCAR driver) rode that day but we didn't see him. We go downtown for dinner and music. As Allison and I are standing downtown, this man walks by and I think I know that guy and sure enough it is Bobby Labonte. I go over and tell him my friend, Kathy, is a big fan of his and ask if I can get a picture of him....okay, I first say something dumb like you're Bobby Labonte (like he doesn't know who he is). I can tell he doesn't want everyone to bum rush him so I ask Allison if she can take a picture of my friend, Fred and I. She says hello to Fred and he says "yeah, we go way back!" It was so funny. Allison was not as entertained as I was but we went back over after I told her who he was. He introduced to his son, Tyler. It was awesome.
Day 5, Wednesday-Thomasville to Sanford-CENTURY day...Did I mention we are still riding hills? More climbing today than any other day. 4700 feet of climbing. We had a great day though. We stopped and had yummy biscuits and gravy and saw the Richard Petty museum. It was a long day and the roads were bumpy. We did it though. Bonus Allison and I got a great picture on our bikes...that never happens!
Day 6, Thursday-Sanford to Dunn-about 60 miles-Great day. We rolled quite well today! Roads were not as desirable as I wished but it is finally flattening out. As we rolled into town, there were about 5 guys on my wheel and I felt great! Allison and I went out for Mexican and had a great evening. We were afraid we might never get back to camp but then a great lady came by and got us back to camp!
Day 7, Friday-Dunn to Kenansville, 60 miles or so-Okay, I am ready to go home so we are rolling. Allison and I were often the only girls in a group of boys and we hung on with the best of them. It is flat and windy, which is what we ride! We get in right after noon. It was nice to hang out. Allison and I had massages and they were great. After working on some bikes, we hung out at the Tennessee Ranch! Unfortunately, our friend, Bob took a tumble off his bike courtesy of a little bitty dog. He was fine but had lots of road rash and required stitches in his elbow. Ever resilient he rode his bike back from the emergency road.
Day 8, Saturday, Kenansville to Surf City, 55 miles-Last year I wasn't ready to go home but this year I was so away we rode! It was great and I was so glad I had spent so many hours in the saddle! Never had I been able to hang on to a group like this. Tim and I rolled into Surf City. After I got off my bike, I went to the ocean! I took off my jersey and right into the ocean I went. This was the first time I had been to the ocean all year. It was great. This year I was quite moved and almost cried. It was so great to see all the riders come in! It was great to put my feet in the ocean with my friend, Allison. After about an hour, I was on my way home. It was a beautiful day. Lots of blue sky, in the 80s, top down on the Jeep and rolled home. Stopped by the shop to see my peeps and realized how much I missed them! They seem to miss me too!
It was a great week! I was ready to come home though. I am thankful for the opportunities that God has given me! I am also thankful for my cat and my little house! Thankful for my CNC friends too...Allison,Ricky, Tim, Bob, Christine, Sandy, Ragan and all my new friends along the way. Only one missing thing this year...missed my long distance partner, Jimmy D!
Day 1, Saturday - Up at 3 am to drive to Surf City to catch the bus to Blowing Rock. First thing off the bus, I see my friends, Bob and Christine. They are an awesome couple who have been married over 30 years and love each other more and more each day. They ride a tandem and SMOKE up the road. We finally get going at 9 am. Luckily, I am on the bus with Bob and Christine and Stan and Elizabeth (from our club). As we are driving to Blowing Rock, it starts raining ALOT! We get to Blowing Rock at around 4 pm and it is pouring down rain. Finally off the bus, we start to put up our tents and I hear from my friend, Allison! Then I see my friend from Tennessee, Ricky! It was awesome. After a little reunion, we hop in our tents and prepare for day 1 of our ride. Did I mention it was still raining?
Day 2, Sunday-Blowing Rock to Lenoir-58 miles. After a yummy breakfast, we head out to the Blue Ridge Parkway. AWESOME. Cannot even express in words how beautiful it was. The leaves were changing and the views were absolutely incredible. Of course we had to stop and take tons of pictures. Luckily we met up with our other friend, Sandy, on the way to the viaduct! Lots of climbing but tons of descending. On the way down, I realize that we were on the road where I ran a marathon a few years ago (Ridge to Bridge...downhill for 13 miles). We are flying downhill and this lady is laying on her horn like a crazy person. Like we really have somewhere else to go so I give her a salute and continue downhill. It was so fun! At the rest stop, we all meet back up and have some yummy BBQ. We roll into town and have a fun evening at the Tennesee Ranch.
Day 3, Monday, Lenior to Statesville-60 miles-Fun day. More climbing. Fun night in Statesville listening to local musicians and yummy pasta!
Day 4, Tuesday, Statesville to Thomasville-60 miles or so-Did I mention more climbing? By this day, I am asking God if this is a test? I want to be a better climber but not in one week! We roll in and both Allison and I have massages scheduled. Allison naps in the grass as we are just pooped. Ricky (Tennessee Ranch Master) tells us that Bobby Labonte (NASCAR driver) rode that day but we didn't see him. We go downtown for dinner and music. As Allison and I are standing downtown, this man walks by and I think I know that guy and sure enough it is Bobby Labonte. I go over and tell him my friend, Kathy, is a big fan of his and ask if I can get a picture of him....okay, I first say something dumb like you're Bobby Labonte (like he doesn't know who he is). I can tell he doesn't want everyone to bum rush him so I ask Allison if she can take a picture of my friend, Fred and I. She says hello to Fred and he says "yeah, we go way back!" It was so funny. Allison was not as entertained as I was but we went back over after I told her who he was. He introduced to his son, Tyler. It was awesome.
Day 5, Wednesday-Thomasville to Sanford-CENTURY day...Did I mention we are still riding hills? More climbing today than any other day. 4700 feet of climbing. We had a great day though. We stopped and had yummy biscuits and gravy and saw the Richard Petty museum. It was a long day and the roads were bumpy. We did it though. Bonus Allison and I got a great picture on our bikes...that never happens!
Day 6, Thursday-Sanford to Dunn-about 60 miles-Great day. We rolled quite well today! Roads were not as desirable as I wished but it is finally flattening out. As we rolled into town, there were about 5 guys on my wheel and I felt great! Allison and I went out for Mexican and had a great evening. We were afraid we might never get back to camp but then a great lady came by and got us back to camp!
Day 7, Friday-Dunn to Kenansville, 60 miles or so-Okay, I am ready to go home so we are rolling. Allison and I were often the only girls in a group of boys and we hung on with the best of them. It is flat and windy, which is what we ride! We get in right after noon. It was nice to hang out. Allison and I had massages and they were great. After working on some bikes, we hung out at the Tennessee Ranch! Unfortunately, our friend, Bob took a tumble off his bike courtesy of a little bitty dog. He was fine but had lots of road rash and required stitches in his elbow. Ever resilient he rode his bike back from the emergency road.
Day 8, Saturday, Kenansville to Surf City, 55 miles-Last year I wasn't ready to go home but this year I was so away we rode! It was great and I was so glad I had spent so many hours in the saddle! Never had I been able to hang on to a group like this. Tim and I rolled into Surf City. After I got off my bike, I went to the ocean! I took off my jersey and right into the ocean I went. This was the first time I had been to the ocean all year. It was great. This year I was quite moved and almost cried. It was so great to see all the riders come in! It was great to put my feet in the ocean with my friend, Allison. After about an hour, I was on my way home. It was a beautiful day. Lots of blue sky, in the 80s, top down on the Jeep and rolled home. Stopped by the shop to see my peeps and realized how much I missed them! They seem to miss me too!
It was a great week! I was ready to come home though. I am thankful for the opportunities that God has given me! I am also thankful for my cat and my little house! Thankful for my CNC friends too...Allison,Ricky, Tim, Bob, Christine, Sandy, Ragan and all my new friends along the way. Only one missing thing this year...missed my long distance partner, Jimmy D!
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
The first exam...
So today was my first exam in my Exercise Physiology class...now, people who know me know that I am not a science person. I am very real about things. I can explain and understand things in plain English. My professor, who taught at UT for 20 some odd years (Hook 'Em), is a science person. The exam was on 7 chapters including but not limited to Thermodynamics, the Krebs Cycle, ATP/ADP, NAD/NADH, lactic acid, etc, etc. The amount of information was quite overwhelming. I studied and got frustrated because there are some things I did not understand. (Okay, a LOT of things). Well, I typed my review and headed off to the gym at UNCG (which is really nice by the way). So, I get 2 miles into my run and my notebook falls off and stuff is flying everywhere. This nice young man offers to help me and I tell him that I am okay. It is not enough the whole gym saw this and they are all 12 years old (not really)! Well, I pick it up and start running again...again my notebook falls off and now one side of the binder is broken off. Well, I gotta get 4 miles in so back on the treadmill, again my notebook goes flying and papers everywhere. Well, finally I get the point and finish the last 2 miles without studying. So, I get to class and all the 16 year old students (okay, really they are mostly Masters students) are talking and I am getting more confused. Dr. Starnes comes in and hands out the exam and my mind goes into overdrive. Some of the stuff I didn't really study because I thought he was going to ask more about how ATP goes through the cytosol and mitochondria. BUT no, the exam was focused more on Thermodynamics. Needless to say, I am pretty sure I tanked the exam. This got me to wondering if I am really smart enough to be a Dr. I left class pretty defeated.
As I was driving home, I looked up and saw this great rainbow and I knew God was there. Maybe he was hitting me upside the head for not studying hard enough but He was there. I felt better about the situation and know I have to do better on the next 2 exams. Mind you, if you get below a B, then you get booted out of grad school.
So excited about CNC this coming week. I need a break from reality. I don't feel like I can get anything accomplished and end up feeling like a failure most of the time. After CNC, I plan to stay home for awhile on the weekends as I still have a ton of housework and yard work...oh and I need to study.
Tomorrow, I will be solo on my Thursday ride. Milanne is off sunning and scuba diving in Barbadoes...nice...not so nice for me but it will be fine. I hope to ride in the morning, come home to do some housework and pack for CNC and then ride in the pm with my peeps! Hope to lift weights too. Then off to CNC Saturday morning!! YEAH!
As I was driving home, I looked up and saw this great rainbow and I knew God was there. Maybe he was hitting me upside the head for not studying hard enough but He was there. I felt better about the situation and know I have to do better on the next 2 exams. Mind you, if you get below a B, then you get booted out of grad school.
So excited about CNC this coming week. I need a break from reality. I don't feel like I can get anything accomplished and end up feeling like a failure most of the time. After CNC, I plan to stay home for awhile on the weekends as I still have a ton of housework and yard work...oh and I need to study.
Tomorrow, I will be solo on my Thursday ride. Milanne is off sunning and scuba diving in Barbadoes...nice...not so nice for me but it will be fine. I hope to ride in the morning, come home to do some housework and pack for CNC and then ride in the pm with my peeps! Hope to lift weights too. Then off to CNC Saturday morning!! YEAH!
Monday, September 21, 2009
It's back...
Okay, after a brief hiatus, I am back.
In my quest to do 10,000 miles this year, I have done 6500 miles so far! YEAH! Next week, I will be cycling across North Carolina. This is one of my favorite weeks of the whole year! I look forward to seeing my friends, Allison and Ragan. Will miss Jimmy this year!
Tomorrow, I am teaching 3 spin class, hopefully a run, and weights. Haven't been lifting weights like I should and my weight is really showing it. I feel miserable about my weight! So, back I am to trying lose this weight that has plagued me my whole life.
In my quest to do 10,000 miles this year, I have done 6500 miles so far! YEAH! Next week, I will be cycling across North Carolina. This is one of my favorite weeks of the whole year! I look forward to seeing my friends, Allison and Ragan. Will miss Jimmy this year!
Tomorrow, I am teaching 3 spin class, hopefully a run, and weights. Haven't been lifting weights like I should and my weight is really showing it. I feel miserable about my weight! So, back I am to trying lose this weight that has plagued me my whole life.
Friday, July 31, 2009
This week...
This week has been quite interesting. Monday, at my bike shop job, I got nailed straight in the eyeball with some bicycle handlebars. Tuesday, I rode with my friend, Pat B. (who is quite an inspiration) and she broke her pedal and flipped end over end on her bike. Wednesday, nothing too interesting. Thursday, I fell in the woods, got scratched by a branch, got a flat, and chipped a filling. Today, I woke up to some strange bite on my bum.
On the good side, we are leaving for Vegas on Sunday. YEAH! I have 225 miles on the bike this week. I was hoping for 300 and I think I will get 62 or so tomorrow in Carthage. I might have to spin around my neighborhood tomorrow night.
Next week, I hope to relax and maybe run in Vegas. Then back to the grind. I really want to get in shape and lose some weight when we get back. It is frustrating. It seems like the same thing every day. I do well then eat like crap. AAAHHHH! It did not seem to be so hard in the past.
What can I do? Run, eat right, ride, lift weights and do the best I can!!!
On the good side, we are leaving for Vegas on Sunday. YEAH! I have 225 miles on the bike this week. I was hoping for 300 and I think I will get 62 or so tomorrow in Carthage. I might have to spin around my neighborhood tomorrow night.
Next week, I hope to relax and maybe run in Vegas. Then back to the grind. I really want to get in shape and lose some weight when we get back. It is frustrating. It seems like the same thing every day. I do well then eat like crap. AAAHHHH! It did not seem to be so hard in the past.
What can I do? Run, eat right, ride, lift weights and do the best I can!!!
Monday, July 27, 2009
24 Hours of Booty
So, earlier this year, my friend, Jimmy D., somehow managed to talk me into doing 24 Hours of Booty. It is a fundraiser for Lance Armstrong Foundation and other cancer research facilities. Basically, you can ride as little or as much as you can around this 3 mile loop while raising money for cancer. Seeing my dad died from cancer, my mom and stepdad have survived other forms of cancer, I thought it would be a good idea.
My goal was to ride 300 miles. However, I actually underestimated riding for 24 hours. I need sleep. Plus I had a great time hanging out with friends. We started riding at 7 pm on Friday, then we had a yummy dinner, and I rode until about 1:30 am. A little nap was called for so I got in my tent and slept until about 3:30 am. Up again to get 27 more miles. I loved riding at night. There were not that many people up and it was quiet. At 5:30 am, I had ate a couple of doughnuts and took another nap until 8 am. After breakfast, Allison and I were able to watch the Tour so we didn't get on our bikes until 10:30 am. We popped back in for lunch and back out to the Booty loop. At this point, I was trying to get 18 miles in at a time. The booty loop is wonderfully shaded so even though it was very hot, it wasn't so bad! Finally, I decide 175 miles is enough but Jimmy had to tell me he had 176 so I had to go out for just one more loop. I ended up with 178.5 miles. Next year, maybe I will try 200 miles.
During the ride, the thought of people with cancer kept me going. Think of the things we can do that people with cancer cannot. I know it sounds hokey but I thought that. I also spent a lot of time thinking about my dad. Sometimes I was angry and sometimes I was happy with him. But all in all, I think it was a worthwhile experience and hope to do it again.
Luckily, I also met some new friends (Carletta, Liz, Marcy, and Terri) and got to see some old ones (Allison and Jimmy). They were so awesome. Carletta really inspired me as she plugged along on her mountain bike for her first metric century. They were always smiling and happy! Jimmy always inspires me as he is always running around doing some crazy mountain bike/ice climbing/whatever else thing. Jimmy is a Type 1 Diabetic and it doesn't slow him down one bit.
Now, back to reality. Today is my day off from working out. I really would like to work out but I need the rest. 426.5 miles in a week is ALOT!!!!!! I need to get back to eating right, exercising, and lifting weights. I am very frustrated at myself for not doing each of these things. It is so hard! But the things I want will not come easy so I must work at it! Hopefully, I can get 300 miles on the bike in this week as we are off to Las Vegas on Sunday. Running must become enjoyable again as Jimmy has challenged me at Goofy's Challenge in January. Plus I hate to look at myself in the mirror as I think middle age is starting to catch up to me. Nothing like looking like a sausage on wheels.
This week's plan:
Monday-off
Tuesday-ride, weights
Wednesday-run
Thursday-ride, weights
Friday-run
Saturday-ride
Sunday-VIVA LAS VEGAS!!!!
My goal was to ride 300 miles. However, I actually underestimated riding for 24 hours. I need sleep. Plus I had a great time hanging out with friends. We started riding at 7 pm on Friday, then we had a yummy dinner, and I rode until about 1:30 am. A little nap was called for so I got in my tent and slept until about 3:30 am. Up again to get 27 more miles. I loved riding at night. There were not that many people up and it was quiet. At 5:30 am, I had ate a couple of doughnuts and took another nap until 8 am. After breakfast, Allison and I were able to watch the Tour so we didn't get on our bikes until 10:30 am. We popped back in for lunch and back out to the Booty loop. At this point, I was trying to get 18 miles in at a time. The booty loop is wonderfully shaded so even though it was very hot, it wasn't so bad! Finally, I decide 175 miles is enough but Jimmy had to tell me he had 176 so I had to go out for just one more loop. I ended up with 178.5 miles. Next year, maybe I will try 200 miles.
During the ride, the thought of people with cancer kept me going. Think of the things we can do that people with cancer cannot. I know it sounds hokey but I thought that. I also spent a lot of time thinking about my dad. Sometimes I was angry and sometimes I was happy with him. But all in all, I think it was a worthwhile experience and hope to do it again.
Luckily, I also met some new friends (Carletta, Liz, Marcy, and Terri) and got to see some old ones (Allison and Jimmy). They were so awesome. Carletta really inspired me as she plugged along on her mountain bike for her first metric century. They were always smiling and happy! Jimmy always inspires me as he is always running around doing some crazy mountain bike/ice climbing/whatever else thing. Jimmy is a Type 1 Diabetic and it doesn't slow him down one bit.
Now, back to reality. Today is my day off from working out. I really would like to work out but I need the rest. 426.5 miles in a week is ALOT!!!!!! I need to get back to eating right, exercising, and lifting weights. I am very frustrated at myself for not doing each of these things. It is so hard! But the things I want will not come easy so I must work at it! Hopefully, I can get 300 miles on the bike in this week as we are off to Las Vegas on Sunday. Running must become enjoyable again as Jimmy has challenged me at Goofy's Challenge in January. Plus I hate to look at myself in the mirror as I think middle age is starting to catch up to me. Nothing like looking like a sausage on wheels.
This week's plan:
Monday-off
Tuesday-ride, weights
Wednesday-run
Thursday-ride, weights
Friday-run
Saturday-ride
Sunday-VIVA LAS VEGAS!!!!
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