I hope you dance

I Hope You Dance by Lee Ann Womack
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder You get your fill to eat But always keep that hunger May you never take one single breath for granted God forbid love ever leave you empty handed I hope you still feel small When you stand by the ocean Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance I hope you dance I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance Never settle for the path of least resistance Living might mean taking chances But they're worth taking Lovin' might be a mistake But it's worth making Don't let some hell bent heart Leave you bitter When you come close to selling out Reconsider Give the heavens above More than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance I hope you dance (Time is a real and constant motion always) I hope you dance (Rolling us along) I hope you dance (Tell me who) I hope you dance (Wants to look back on their youth and wonder) (Where those years have gone) I hope you still feel small When you stand by the ocean Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance Dance I hope you dance I hope you dance (Time is a real and constant motion always) I hope you dance (Rolling us along) I hope you dance (Tell me who) (Wants to look back on their youth and wonder) I hope you dance (Where those years have gone) (Tell me who) I hope you dance (Wants to look back on their youth and wonder) (Where those years have gone)
Pa

My mom gave me this bear that played this song. My mom has danced and she is quite an inspiration to me. She is strong and fun and I love her too much! Think about this song though...some people stay on the sidelines and never dance. However, if you do not dance, you can't get the high from that and on the same token, you can't feel the hurt. Some people say I am emotional and that is a-okay. My therapist says I am too much one way or another. I am either high or low. That is true. If I am happy, I am really happy and if I am sad, I am really sad. However, the power of both of these emotions makes me the person I am. While I might be emotional and moody, at least most people know where they stand with me. I can look in the mirror and like who I am becoming. Is it the thin triathlete? No. Is it me - just me? Absolutely. Will I dance? You better believe it! Love you all!

Where did May go?

Can't believe I did not make a blog post all of May. WOW!

Well, I am not doing too great in Ironman retirement. I have been riding but not running too much. I am in my 5th week of P90x and hope it works. Somehow, I let my friend, Susan, talk me into doing the 10 miler on Thursday. We will see how that works out.

Every day I say tomorrow is a new day. It is but I must make the changes I want to see. It is very hard. It seemed easier before but not now. You know that saying something about turning over a new leaf, I feel like I have turned over an entire forest. So, I have decided to just have one main goal a day and see how that works out. Yesterday, it was not to eat after 8 pm and I did it. Today, I did not really make one but I will tomorrow. I want to lose weight and feel desperate to do so but my actions do not mirror that. So, I will try to take one step at a time and do the best I can. That is all I can do.

The rest of this week should be interesting...here is the workout plan:
Wednesday-run, P90X, maybe ride to work
Thursday-10 miler, ride, P90X
Friday-run, P90X, hopefully ride before work
Saturday-ride
Sunday-ride

Some great news though...
1) I have been accepted into the Ed.D program in Exercise and Sport Science at UNC Greensboro and will start in the Fall.
2) I signed up for Goofy's Challenge in January.
3) I installed a battery in my old Dodge and it works!!!
4) At work, I will be able to get my hands dirty and work on bikes!
Things are looking up!!!