Blog got a bit neglected...

Blog got a bit neglected...Busy days!

Just read this from SparkPoints:
"I believe that anyone can conquer fear by doing the things he fears to do, provided he keeps doing them until he gets a record of successful experiences behind him."- Eleanor Roosevelt, human rights advocate
Conquering your fears through action
Life brings with it many doubts and fears. But the unknown and the untried have held more people back than any lack of ability. Most successes are never seen because they're never attempted. The courage to face your fears can build momentum that creates magic. Each time you overcome an obstacle, a fear or a step back, you gain confidence. Every small victory helps you feel more certain of yourself and your direction, pushing you further and faster than you ever thought possible. You can do it! What's holding you back? True, fears are intimidating. So start small. Believe in yourself and take one small swipe at your fear today just to see what happens. If you can't talk yourself past the "point of no return", get a friend to help. In the end, half of the doing is in the deciding. If you stumble, don't be afraid to brush yourself off and jump back in.

Usually what holds me back is me. I get afraid and it is so easy to become complacent and stay where I am. Obviously, that gets us no where fast. Lately, I have made a couple of small swipes at staring fear in the face. The first one has to do with running. Let's face it...my motivation sucks. Thankfully I have been able to ask my spouse and Ginger to help me and getting back to running. Even though I keep falling, I keep getting up and getting back to it. Even though I need help, it doesn't mean I failed. Today, Doodle and I ran a hilly, rainy, muddy 10K. We were slipping and sliding and covered in mud. Honestly, I wanted to quit. Somehow I was able, with his help, to push past that and finish with a smile on my face. This brought in another fear because I am afraid to ask for help because I think it would be weak or put another person out. However, my friend, Alexa, told me once that people want to help you and it makes them feel good so it is helping everyone. It is still hard! Thanks to Doodle and Ginger! You both ROCK!

The other thing is applying to graduate school. Honestly, I really do not think I am that smart and am petrified that the school will not let me in. I am scared I will not get a high enough score on the GRE. However, I just keep pressing on and filling out the application and reading a book on the GRE. Am I still scared? Absolutely. But I cannot stay in the same position and expect miraculous changes. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and over again and expecting different results. Even if I fail, it is better than going crazy. SO, I challenge you today to face something you are afraid of...even if it is a little bug. You will get more confidence and be on your way to bigger and better things. We can all do it! If you need help, ask!

Plans for the weekend...
Saturday-ride if not raining, run if raining, P90X
Sunday-ride, P90X, run if raining Saturday

PS...my big fat cat, Atticus, is just fine. He had an echocardiogram and the results (Which just got back yesterday) said his heart was just fine. He has a fancy new haircut. Who knows why he has an irregular heartbeat? The vet doesn't! It doesn't matter as long as he is okay!!!